When He talks about tribulation, overcoming the obstacles of my fall IS my tribulation. I am just sitting here trying to reflect on my day. It has been a very active one starting with kickboxing, which totally wore me out today. But bring it on, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. That has always been my mentality. It makes me think of the pop artist, Kelly Clarkson’s song, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger..” It's kinda funny that I remembered this song because I don't even like her music. I then went to my favorite local coffee shop, 5th Street Coffee. I got what I always get, a “red eye” which is coffee with a shot of espresso. I usually get a pastry as well, however at the restaurant this morning I took a piece of fruit pie back, so I chose not to get a pastry.
I share all this above to show I have lots of introspection and experience happening in my day to day life. If you were to tell people this would be a day in my life seven years ago, after the accident, no one would believe me. Even putting two sentences together was a pipe dream. While I am not living my ideal life, I am getting through obstacles that help me be stronger. He will not set you up for failure. If I had listened solely to the doctors and my team I don't think I would be doing as well as I am. I know it's not me, alone. He puts the fire under my ass. When I do not feel like doing what I need to do, or going through life’s necessary shit, a voice in my head talks to me. There are two voices in my head that sometimes are competing. My own voice in my head is pushing me forward. It's not very nice, saying things like, “stop being a p%$#”. This is my consciousness being really hard on me. But I see that as a good thing, it motivates me, like the train. See but I don't think I can, I know I can. So my response once again, just shake off the doubt and disbelief. God is the other voice saying to “slow down” and “take it easy on yourself.” Like assuring me that He’s “got me.” For example, in my dreams I hear His voice. The voice is sanctified, setting it apart from my own voice. Because of this, I tend to listen to this voice when it speaks to me. I try to at least. To summarize my main point, when He talks about tribulation, overcoming the obstacles of my fall is my tribulation. The details of my recovery are my tribulations. They are a part of it. Having this happen to me has made me become more humble. Like before, I would not let anyone help me. Now, I am more willing to accept help. I am more wise now to know you can not go through life solo. Having support does not make a person weak. Under LIKE and POST below, remember to leave a comment.
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