 Airport day again. Driving to the airport. It’s 10:46 am. I’ve been driving for about a half hour and it’s boring.
Arrived at the airport to discover we missed our flight. How annoying! The next flight wasn’t available until 7 pm. I was hungry so we went to Melody's where I got two chicken tacos with avocado and a goddess salad - I was full. While there I met some dude; he was cool. I never thought I would be the kind of guy that meets whoever I see and just talk. I never thought I would just start talking to random people. Being cooped up has made me want to get out and do things and be with people. It has helped me open up more. I miss life with friends. I need to get out there again and do something! Finally caught our flight home. Quote for the day: “Praise God we are finally on our way home!”
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It’s 7:52 am, just chillin’ with my wife, having coffee, and watching the tide. The kids aren’t up yet. It is nice to have her here to just sit with. Watching the tide is just kind of relaxing. I was just being in the moment. My family goes home today. What a sad day! I would love to live closer to my family. For some reason, I have to stay in California. I do not know why. It is part of my court case I believe. The day was spent hanging out with the kids until they left. After that, Eli and I went to a place to eat and hang out.  Starting the day with the farmers market and the plan to go to the pier tonight. It felt like we waited a long time to go to the pier. It felt like all day. While we waited, the kids wanted to watch their shows on Netflix. They chose “Outer Banks”. I could tell it was made for kids. It wasn’t something that I would have chosen. The thing is, it wasn’t about me, even though I like to think things are always about me. It wasn’t this time. Finally made it to the pier. We just walked around and looked at stuff. Honestly, it wasn’t the best experience. If I could do it over, I probably wouldn’t! If I HAD to, I would spend more time eating at places and make it about the food. The Pier itself wasn’t all that impressive. All the photos of the pier make it look better than it is! So we went and looked at the restaurants near the pier. They were actually good. We had pizza and everyone enjoyed it. The cool thing was that it was like real Italian pizza. “When life gives you lemons, find some sugar, baby, because we’re making lemonade!” -Thomas Jeglum   It’s 7:05 am. I frequently wake up around 4 am. Today was 5 am. The morning feels slow, waiting for others to wake up. I was doing the dishes; I guess I was making too much noise. I woke up my wife. I stopped doing dishes and we laid on the couch, waiting for the kids to wake up. It felt really nice. You know how it is when you are with someone you really care about, and you don’t have to say anything. It’s nice to be with them, just knowing they are there. While we went to CVS pharmacy, my partner's cousin was up and working virtually. It seems like she is a bit of a workaholic. I am not sure if it was just at that time, or if Tracy is always that way. The trip to CVS was to buy Mucinex for my significant other. She was congested. When we came back, Eli made us eggs, pancakes and cut up some strawberries. I always add peanut butter or Nutella to my pancakes, just a suggestion. Again, I would have liked to have cooked for my family. I would have probably made the same thing, but it just would have been nice to have done it myself. In the afternoon, we went to Buccaneer Park, a local park. It has a good playground. I spun my kids around on the silver spinning thing. I really enjoyed that. They also had this bridge that was about balancing skills. The bridge was suspended by rope so it moved as you walked on it. You kinda had to pay attention. I did that a couple times, too.  When I was younger, the slides at the parks were made out of metal so you could go super fast. There were also cement slides. They were okay, but not as fast as the metal ones. You needed to sit on cardboard on the cement ones to make them go faster. Now there are just slow plastic slides. “The world is a playground, and life is pushing my swing.” (Natalie Kocsis) Today we stayed at the house. We just sat around and talked. I am not even sure what we talked about, but it was nice to just talk about normal things. It’s nice to just feel like a normal family. The thing is, everyone tries to hide their insecurities about all the things that are going on. It’s nice to just talk to someone and get the real story straight from them. We had an amazing Mediterranean meal. Once again, it was Eli cooking. Wish it could have been me. I am not even sure what we had, but it was good! After dinner, we had s’mores roasted over the fire. The kids roasted their own marshmallows. One was on fire and fell off because it melted too much… one of the inevitable downfalls of roasting marshmallows! My thinking is to not put the marshmallow into direct heat. Let the fire, or heat, come to the marshmallow unless you like the charred taste. Then you put it in the fire, and let it burn, but not too much. My significant other wasn’t feeling well and went to bed early. I stayed outside with Eli and the kids for a little while. They weren’t out there too long. They still go to bed early. After the kids went to bed, Eli and I stayed up until the fire burned out. Money can’t buy happiness - but it can buy marshmallows!   Today we went to the San Diego Zoo. Sometimes it can be depressing to see all of the animals in a cage, just stuck there. I put myself in their shoes. I’m kind of living in a cage myself, just living in my room. Locked up. Living like I am in a zoo. I did enjoy walking around alone with my daughter a lot. It was nice to look at the animals through her eyes and see her excitement. It was good to know that she was happy. Like I said, it doesn’t matter how I feel. I just want them to have a good time. I noticed all of the monkeys playing together except one that was by himself. I wondered, “Why?” Why did they single him out? Was he not cool? Maybe he was the only cool one and that is why he sat alone! Maybe we can go back when the kids are older. Maybe not. I know when I was older, I didn’t want to go to the zoo, but maybe they will.   Today we went to Vons for strawberry shortcake and ice cream. I don’t want to deprive my kids of sweets. When I was younger, I knew that I liked those things, too. When you’re younger, you always have the energy to expel whatever you eat. And it just tastes good!
If I could have done anything differently today, we would have spent time in a bigger pool. The pool here is only like 4 feet deep, so it isn’t that great. It is okay, but I would like to actually swim instead of just standing there. My thought for today: “Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” Like I have always said, it’s just a stepping stone.  What now? Breakfast! Eli is doing the cooking. I have to sit here and wait until breakfast is made because, APPARENTLY, I can’t cook. Not true! I don’t understand why I can’t cook for my family. Cooking for them is an important part of being with my family. Not cooking is taking away my interaction with them. And, not to mention, I used to cook all the time. I have worked hard to get that skill back and I kinda wanted to show that off. I used to be an exceptional cook, even cooking at a restaurant. So, today I guess I am focusing on “Patience and perseverance have a magical effect, before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.”
I am relaxing and enjoying myself with my family today. Having someone constantly with us feels like having an intruder. I don’t want to sound mean. I like the guy, but I just would like my time with my family alone. Lunchtime today equals Jack in the Box! Eating out is not my favorite thing to do. If I could make my own food, I would. Going to the restaurant isn’t for me, but it is for the kids. They enjoy going to Jack in the Box. Who am I to deprive them of that?  Oh, my God! I am so excited! I am going to see my kids. It’s not everyday that I get to see them. So, as I am sitting here waiting, the anticipation is engulfing me. I am about to erupt like a volcano. Boarding the plane now… As you all know, the flight is just boring. You just sit here the whole time; it is like 45 minutes or an hour. No fun. I guess it’s better than sitting in a car for four hours, but it is still boring. Finally arrived. To be honest, everything at this beach house is kinda outdated. It is four stories with a whole bunch of stairs. The elevator sucks. Like everything else, it is old. My focus today: Just put the bad things you can’t control out of mind and just move forward. Moving forward with my kids… we are building sand castles. It feels great! I know it’s not rocket science, but it would have been nice to have more tools to use to build it. A father’s lesson to my kids: Show no mercy! Playing Sorry! with them and winning! At the end of the day, life shows no mercy.  |
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